First and foremost: Thank God you are alive!
Cycling is inherently dangerous, period end of story.
If it isn't crappy roads, it's weather. If it isn't weather, it's inattentive motorists. If it isn't inattentive motorists, it's mechanical failure. If it isn't mechanical failure it's a really dumb biking maneuver.....the list for feeding fear is endless.
On the other hand, if it wasn't for all of the negative possibilities, none of the really good stuff would be available....
Cycling is joyous, challenging, fun, spiritual, invigorating, healing, medicinal, provocative, political, life changing,......the list for feeding courage and serenity is endless.
Cycling is just another aspect of life....and death....just like love or hope, success or failure......it's worth the risk based on my experience. My fear is that it may bite me in the ass just like any other risk we all take as we travel the road to a happy destiny.
You'll be fine, just like you have been your entire life.
Ride safe-