No I understand the gravity of what I eat and what the ultimate effects on my health will be. I have diabetes in the family, as well as heart disease, arthritis and addictive personalities. **** me, right?
I make choices about food almost every day. "Don't eat that ****" and "This smells turned" are usually it.
I took the liberty of deleting the excuses from your post.
Stop making excuses.
Eating well does not always mean eating expensively. No one is going to hold your hand while they spoon feed you. You are an adult. Decide to do something and then do it.
What you want is right on the other side of your list of excuses.