The "I'll go cry myself a river ir something" was meant to indicate that I fully realize that not being able to afford to travel abroad is a pretty stupid thing to whine about whilst living comfortably in a first world country.

There are a lot of people here trying to help me, and if you haven't noticed, I take what they say to heart & respond appropriately. What causes me to respond so differently to you is that it doesn't feel like you're trying to help because you offer so much criticism & so little advise. When people do that, I tend to assume they're just hate-mongering. So I apologize for misinterpretting your intent.