my first mountain bike ride i got dropped by a group of little kids that were no more than 12 yrs old. that was two weeks ago

I've fell over 3 times thanks to clipless. once in front of a bus full of kids, and once getting ready at my first race

I've had 3 easily preventable serious crashes since getting my road bike, the most recent breaking my collar bone

I'm undisciplined and too competetive for my own good

i've had to lay down on the side of the road to avoid fainting

I can't figure out how to properly refuel on longer rides

I'm afraid of what will happen the first time i get back on my bike and stand up