I'm beginning to dread the next ride rather than looking forward to it. I'm doing an organized metric this weekend and am not excited about it. I used to eagerly anticipate the next ride, but each one is starting to feel like something I have to do to prepare for the next event. I want to complete my first century next February, and that not going happen unless I ride, ride, ride whether I want to or not, not, not.

I'm wondering if this is a passing phase or if I really do need a break. I feel busier than when I was working, the holidays are coming, and I want a few months of nothing on the calendar -- just putter in the house and garden. I've even considered returning to work just to get away from the multitude of new things that are now on my plate. I like to do a lot of different things and it seems that my days are so busy I don't take time to relax.

I just want to get up and ask myself: Shall I take a walk? A bike ride? Go to the gym? Work in the garden? Make a cake? Try a new recipe? Clean a room? Whatever -- just no goals, lists to keep, or things to remember!!