Originally Posted by
eja_ bottecchia
There is a lot of truth to this. In my case I often feel guilty and then depressed, about how well my life is going (at least from a professional and "possessional" point of view) while I have rleatives back in Cuba who are are struggling under an oppressive regime.
I feel better when I give some of the money and possessions away through charitable causes. Like anything else, the effect is good but temporary.
I suffer from what surgeon stone calls endogenous, or as it was called, chemical depression. If I stop my meds for five days everyone knows about it.
Seriously, I really do feel guilty because I've had such an easy life.
I wonder sometimes if, when I ride hard and long enough to cause pain and suffering upon myself, if that might not be some sort of self-flagellation, penance for my sins, the athletic equivalent of climbing Krough Patrick on bare feet in the winter.
As I said, strange thing, this ailment.