Does anyone or did anyone feel embarrassed at first when riding around on a bike?
To be honest I am and that comes from a few reasons.
1st, I’m paranoid that people are watching me because to see a Clyde on a bike is not the norm here, at least I have never seen it.
2nd, I’m not a fast rider, in fact I am anything but. I just like to take my time while others go at the speed of sound. And that makes me more paranoid because I keep thinking people are laughing at me going slower than them because I’m a Clyde.
3rd, I’m going through the learning process of getting the gears right for what I want to do. So when I come to an incline, I am sometimes not in the right gear and by the time I have figured it out its too late and I can’t pedal so have to get off. Another reason for being paranoid and looking a fool.
4th, I’m not confident that a bike will hold up to my weight (310) and the last thing I want is to have to get off because of a broken something or other and have to push it home. More paranoia – Clyde pushing a bike because he broke it!!
Am I being totally stupid here?
It doesn't matter how slow you go- you are still running laps around those sitting on the couch.
Or on this case- peddling miles around them.
Any good, mature cyclist would be proud I think to see you doing something!
It would only be the immature whi would say/think something horrible. In that case- I find it best to try & remember that 1) their perception of how the world & you should be is just that- perceptions, likely tainted by preconceived notions and beliefs on what beauty really is.
2) Even if something were to happen, just know that in the end you DONT have to take their perception of you home.Hard ti do sometimes but completely possible. You KNOW you are out there doing the right thing. You are brave. Each one of us discovers our own truth on our own path. This one is yours- own it. Don't let anyone-- not even your ownself- get in the way.
3) sometimes our fears are bigger than others thoughts. Let go. Ride like your bike was stolen. Try each day to pay more attention to your own self & not what others may be thinking.
4) Believe in yourself- a little more each day. You can do this. You WILL do this.
I believe you can do it!