Joined: Jan 2009
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From: New York, NY, and High Falls, NY, USA
Bikes: 1962 Rudge Sports, 1971 Raleigh Super Course, 1971 Raleigh Pro Track, 1974 Raleigh International, 1975 Viscount Fixie, 1982 McLean, 1996 Lemond (Ti), 2002 Burley Zydeco tandem
I'm very sorry about your brother. Cancer is horrific. I don't know if we can help you as much as a therapist can. I recommend that you see one. Your grief is great, and seeing your way through it can't be easy.