I understand you're delemma. I greive for you. I have a cheap Fuji lugged steel bike given to me by a good family freind. He is in the terminal stages of cancer. I am never going to give it up. It's a little big for me. I don't give a damn. I'm fixing it up and am updating it. I'll keep it and ride it in his honour. I hope you will do the same.
Mark Shuman