So I was trying to figure out your deal.

Maybe you're so very passionate about your hobby that you just can't help getting confrontational with drivers.

Perhaps in the event of a collision with a motor vehicle and possible disability, your family finances are certain to remain comfortable.

Perhaps you just don't give a **** if you live or die.

At any rate, none of that matters to this conversation, which is about shedding your anger after a close call with a car. I'm assuming you're aware that these situations happen with depressing regularity.

P.S., I'll grant you that 'murder' isn't exact. Manslaughter is better.
P.P.S. Accusations of braggadocio From the fellow who exhorts me to 'harden the **** up?' Seriously?