Hey, here's a "voice" from the past!

I don't really have anything to offer, but welcome back!

We all go through crappy times in our lives. Some of self-inflicted, some of it not. You'll get through it, in no small part due to cycling.

One suggestion if you haven't already: See if you can get to the local tip shop and see what old bikes are being thrown out. You might luck across an old Shogun, or Malvern Star, or even an MTB such as a Stumpjumper that might fit you, and might have components still functional enough for you to upgrade as you can afford it. My own fixed gear was built up from a Shogun frame from a tip in country Victoria and I still love riding it a decade later.