Guys, this is a cycling forum, not a psychology forum. I made some comments which, while true, just really shouldn't be on a cycling forum - both yesterday and in the recent past.

I sincerely apologize for that. Not only should you not have to read it, or process it, but it's really all TMI. And it doesn't reflect well on me, if someone "real world" found this, I would be really embarrassed. I've been very selective about who knows what about my situation, but online I spilled my guts ... I guess I've bottled it all up for 51 years, and it's just spewing out like a volcano now. Healthy in ways, but not appropriate here.

I haven't even had the courage to look at yesterday's thread, last week's that was brought up today. I feel like an idiot.

So sorry again, I'm going to lay low for a long time. Still struggling to find time and motivation to ride, but I need to make that more of a priority in my life. Like I said, I've been blessed with everything, but I just can't see it most days through the fog of whatever this was/is in my life. In cycling, I've been blessed to indulge my whims, with the hope that it was, and will be again, a part of my therapy and salvation.

And yes, I've taken appropriate medical steps to deal with this.

Respectfully and humbly, DaveQ.