I must respectfully disagree with you...I find your post both courageous and helpful. You, me and millions of other middle age men are challenged by the past and how to manage the feelings that are associated with being survivors of trauma, abuse and neglect.

The fact that you have chosen to let go of the pain and have begun to take your power back is inspirational to any person who is struggling to find the wherewithal within themselves to take that step. How you take the first steps are inconsequential, the fact that you have begun is all that counts. It doesn't matter how people who don't understand react; what matters is how it makes you feel.

I wish you peace, serenity, and the strength to continue on your journey. And please remember that when men like you show the temerity to expose your pain to anyone, you become a source of hope to any who still suffer.