Occasionally exploring my constantly changing limits ...

I am always going to be slow. Even if I went 100% for speed training, devoted my entire life to it ... I would be the slower of the faster old fat guys. I am not a natural athlete in mind or body and I am finally mature enough to accept and admit that.

So I ride however I feel, which occasionally includes pushing, distance or speed or effort or all of these ... and sometimes includes riding at a slightly quick but comfortable pace ... with little rests whenever I want. After all the only prize i will ever win is the time riding ... and if I am thinking of something else then, I get nothing.

Like [MENTION=160128]1989Pre[/MENTION] I try to save a little so I am not making stupid errors on the last leg ... having made that mistake few times and gotten really lucky, i'd rather not push my luck.

And I have to admit, there are plenty of times on the last straight stretch off road before the last turn into my neighborhood I think "Now push just a Little longer," and then I shut down out of pure laziness. That bugs me only because I won't commit either to resting or pushing ... but otherwise I really don't care.

Not saying anyone should do it my way ... but I ride for smiles.I like seeing bigger-than-usual numbers after a ride, but still, those are just numbers. The ride is over, and knowing I averaged .2 mph quicker than last week is not that big a thrill (still a good feeling though )