Not to be overly melodramatic … but sometimes people go through phases of life where they keep thinking, “I need to turn things around … I need to reboot, to kickstart my life … I need to tsart getting going again.”
I had a job from which I figured I would never retire …. I would just slowly pare down my hours and be pickier about assignments and do stuff I loved for a small paycheck forever (as opposed to paying to do it.)
That all went sideways … “Hello, I am Life … oh, did you Not want me to kick you in the groin? Sorry, I am not real good at that …”
I then found a job organizing cycling tours around the world …. while still possibly doing the old job part-time. I thought I had actually improved what I had previously thought would be the perfect future.
Yeah, did I mention Life?
Then right after I learned that the company had folded, I broke my collarbone repeatedly.
I got rehired, started riding again, joined a local club, I was doing okay … then my job went away for good.
I don’t think I ever completely came back from that. I lost motivation, I lowered my expectations, and I sort of settled for a slow downward spiral.
I seriously only did like six rides in January, and six more in February.
Just a couple months ago I got a new job, for even less pay, but a challenging job which is forcing me to learn nrw things and work with difficult but very talented people. I also tried to start riding more and exercising more, which brought mixed results …. But in general, things were maybe starting to rebound.
When I started thinking about this thread, and about my attitude as I saw it revealed in this thread … I realize that it is about time I grabbed a hold of myself and lifted.
I couldn’t a couple months ago, I was still falling … but I think I hit bottom, and now is the time …
It is not that these few posts “turned my life around …” but they were what I needed to read and write to give me a fresh perspective.
So … I am actually looking forward to 13 or 15 miles this evening …. I might even hit 15 mph! And I will be really careful with my knee, while still trying to do some work ….
LOL … and then [MENTION=78894]Carbonfiberboy[/MENTION] comes along and says it will get worse.
That’s okay …. I have been ready for “a lot worse.” I am thinking now that I might at least slow the “slow drip drip drip of loss of ability.” I might not every be forty again … but maybe 55?