Originally Posted by koala logs

Thanks! I acted on that dream and made it real. Except on the classic car for obvious reasons.

Achieving "A to B" on the bike, doing centuries. Felt great for a while. But still couldn't compare to achieving something in life like getting married, having kids, having a stable job, and a house of my own. I have none of those and drowning in debt on top of it. I have a bit of mental and psychological shortcomings from a traumatic injury to the head when I was a kid. I just couldn't perform as well as everyone, I couldn't keep friends and you probably need these just to get anywhere in life. I have so little incentive to go on living, the reason why I tried to kill myself over the years.

For now, cycling is an effective distraction and probably the best temporary solution I found. But the emptiness is still there. I've tried religion and faith, already, that didn't worked either and only made things worse.