Believe me, I know how you feel. When I clocked in every day, I told my co-workers: "This job sucks! Kill me!". About 5-6 years before the earliest day I was eligible to retire, I wrote a spreadsheet program that counted down how many work days I had left. I factored in RDOs, vacation days and holidays. I actually went two weeks past the first possible day, just to make the bookkeeping simpler. This way my last check, that included pay for unused vacation days, didn't get screwed up. Good luck. If I made it, so can you.