Originally Posted by
OldTryGuy
I woke up on the morning of my 50th and thought, *Likely have been alive longer than have left to live so START REALLY LIVING and before I die I will be told "you have cancer."
NOT dead yet but have cancer and treatment is kicking the crapola out of me making bicycling more of a chore than a pleasurable ride. Will keep spinning cranks as long as possible and then *check out*
Did manage 75.75 miles for my 75th B-day in July.
The alternative to 'feeling like crap from C treatment' is less acceptable.
During my 3 + yrs of almost weekly chemo, I constantly had to face the 'Feeling like absolute Crap". thing, and that 'in spite of doing this, will I still succumb?" thing...
A quick slap upside the head made me realize I was still 'here', and what we have is NOW, everything else is still unknown...
so, I became happier every ride, every walk, every moment I realized I was still here.
I appreciate 'NOW" very much...
You did your B-day ride - awesome !
be joyful, now...
look forward with anticipation.
It's OK and often good to not be satisfied with yourself, now. There's always 'better' to hope and work for.
But appreciate Now, as much as you are able
... it feels good, it works... it's all any of us have
Ride On
Yuri