A few years ago I was splitting my time between swimming and racing bikes. I was on a swimming scholarship so, while swimming paid the bills, cycling was fun. At my last swimming meet of the season I made two dumb mistakes in my best event and didn't qualify for finals. I was furious with myself. My coach wasn't happy either. I went home for the summer wondering if I had just blown my ride and KNOWING that I had wasted a chunk of my season. I entered an individual TT two days later and used it as penance. I blasted right through my pain threshold and severly punished myself through the race. I didn't win, but I did faint just after the finish. The EMT that came to check me out asked me how I felt. I said, "Paid up." My friend (a shrink) told me that this story worried him. I told him that I was surprised that the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders) doesn't document "crushing expectations."