Thanks for the constructive advice. I think I'll give up...

If you notice, I've been stopping at lights that I could make intentionally to practice, the problem is I'm paranoid about doing that clipped in. I'm wondering if it's any better/easier do do them clipped in (hopefully without falling over) and if it's harder to do them on the smaller/lighter pedals that I eventually want to put on my bike. I'm also wondering how many people actually do their trackstands clipped in, so I can k if it is something I should think about, or if I should go back to trying to do crop circles instead...