Not sure if this place has a (lame joke) soul, Gary, but you are in many ways the heart of our forum.........my best thoughts for you towards some resolution or, failing all else, your adjustment to your circumstances. Not to mention, we're all hoping to get you back as soon as possible. People have said some very nice things here because they care a lot for you. That, and we've all, by 50 plus, had a fair share of difficulties.........lots of empathy. No matter what, Take Care!