Dostoyevsky a beat? Archtypally yes. But your initial question is at the heart of my reply. You're not a poser, but have tasted the zen of fixed gear. I went from owning mega-dollar downhill rigs to Santa Cruz Nomads, yet remained unsatisfied (when not overwhelmed) by the clutter, complexities and maintenance of ever-evolving and fickle shocks, derailleurs and disc brakes. Strip a bike to its bare essence and you'll uncover a fixie with no buffers between you and the road, no coasting to lull awareness, no recklessness born of the false sense of security a brake gives. If you've the personality that seeks the unmediated apprehension of truth, you came naturally to fixed gear riding. Growth is no pose.