Sounds like you got a touch of depression, maybe more than a touch. I go through that sometimes myself. You get to the point you don't want to get out of bed. I don't mind leaving the bike sit and doing something else for a while. Then when I'm ready to ride, it's there and I feel stronger when I do start riding. I like what Tom said, just take a break. If you force yourself into it, you will just hate it more. Don't do that please. I remember when I joined this forum and I got a lot of inspiration from you. Now I hope we can give you enough. Just sit back read a book or something. You'll need something to keep your mind on something, so stinky thinking wont put you down.

I just got back from the hospital AGAIN and I sure wish I could have half the spirit my wife has. Sometimes driving home from the doctors or hospital and have to leave her there, I feel like smashing the dashboard. I just have to deal with it just as you have too as well and I wish you good luck, from the bottom of my heart. I know everybody needs a break and I'm right there with you.