Tom, truly do relate to your situation. I am a high-strung type A, getting 220 on a 110 line. I have been self-employed my entire life, and pretty much work 6-7 days. I had my first mid-life crisis 7 years ago, left a very lucrative job because I felt that I would suffocate if I stayed. I had already dealt with ulcers, migraines, etc. and am totally convinced that I needed a change.

I chased my dream of building homes and now everything I own is invested in the ground and at risk. This haywire market has me on the edge of my seat and I have already had one emotional meltdown, lost 11 lbs. and my health started deteriorating.

I am in a state of step back and look at what is important to me. I am not sure of which path I will take, but if I continue the direction I am in, I will definitely end up in a hospital.

Riding is my only escape that I can take part of on a regular basis. It's just so hard to deal with everything that is going on and have the time or energy (Physical or Mental) to ride as much as I want to. It looks like you have made the decisions of what is important and picked a path. Congratulations, I admire your ability to make that decision.