When everything caves in on you at once, it's the worst. It can be oddly liberating, though, too, and hitting bottom at least gives you a position to move from. You find a way to separate the things that you can reckon with from things that are beyond your control. Sometimes it seems like it is all beyond your control, but it's not. Change the things that you can; ignore the ones you can't for now. You can change your job, your apartment, your sleep patterns, your wheel, your contribution to interactions with others. You can't help water under the bridge, the changing of the seasons, or people's responses to you on a bike. Daysleeping and C/T blow; make your health a priority. You say you have no desire/ambition to leave your comfort zone, but the zone isn't sounding so comfortable right now and you took the time to write the above, so Step One out of the abyss accomplished. keep going. Good luck.