My $0.02 just work out what gear comfortably allows you to get from bottom to top, then repeat it over the weeks working on increasing your cadence. Once you've got that down, think about resetting in a taller gear and start again -- it'll come.

FWIW -- a post titled "Am I a Pansy?" is the BF equivalent of walking around with a piece of paper marked "kick me" on your back.