Welcome back Mike...
I'm kind of glad I never followed through with any of my thoughts of commissioning decals from you.

But, in spite of my lack of personal involvement, as part of the group, I was hurt by your actions indirectly. And although you never hurt me directly, I accept your apology.
I never did meth, but I can tell you that I remember having some brilliant ideas while doing acid, and can't remember what the ideas were, but they sure seemed brilliant at the time. I thought for a while that Timothy Leary was really on to something, but now I know that in the case of acid, it is definitely an illusion.
I quit taking acid while I still continued to do other drugs for one reason. I realized that I liked it
way too much. I could envison myself really wasting my life for the sake of that one drug... It took me a while longer to realize how wasteful other drugs were, but I am confident that my decision on acid saved my life. Make sure your decision about meth does the same for you.
As someone with an addictive personality, and also a psychological drive to withdraw when things get tough, I can understand some of your issues.
Above all, don't do it again!!!! Whether meth or anything else, never do anything without considering what negative things it can have on your life, and those around you.
Again, welcome back.