Often, about two or three times per week, I binge eat pretty hard. I just finished off 17 chocolate chip cookies (damn my roommate for buying cookie dough). And the whole time, I feel stupid about it. Even with healthy foods... I'll start with some carrots dipped in hummus, and end up finishing off the entire bag of carrots and tub of hummus
Knowingly performing rituals in conflict with one's own sense of well being
is not a training or nutritional issue. You have a psychological problem triggered by issues having nothing to do with diet or exercise.
The advice for you, like so many of these forums - get professional help, it's unlikely you'll act on the free kind. Some people, like myself, do not tolerate being asked to act as co-enablers and game players to most of the sick people mis-posting to these forums.
Fed up? Then get help.