Congrats on the new bike.
I hope you won't take this the wrong way, but I think you can see how much your indecision is getting in your way. It is very rare that we ever have perfect information when we need to make choices, nor do we have choices that include a perfect option. It's better to make any choice at all even if it is a slightly wrong choice rather to sit on the sidelines your whole life paralyzed by the fear of making a wrong choice. Don't be afraid to make mistakes. We all do it.
I made a bad choice when I got my first bike, but I just sold it for a little less than I paid for it after 3 months and started riding another bike that suited me better.