Deshi,

I didn't mean to be so harsh to you. It's all done with love, bro. But, you're either doing this thing or you're not. Know what I mean? I mean, have you noticed how things like your outrageous living conditions and exorbitant lifestyle keep you working at a job that actually pays a livable wage keep you from expanding your inner self and getting a job as a messenger or pedi-cabbie? How about how that job keeps you from being able to ride all day shackling you to riding nights and weekends? This has to start making sense to you, man. We want to help you along but you've got to be willing. This is about the whole enchilada. The culture my man. You are either in or you are out. Of course, your choice.