I really don't have any problem with saying I am not really sharp/smart/intelligent (you can choose you adjective) or anything else about the subject

. I made peace about this a long time ago, what can I ever do about some number from a test. I got angry when the HS teachers would say things about me in front of the class all the time

but all I got from that was a headache. I decided that I would do the best I could with my abilities, study very hard, read everything I could get my greasy hands on (I was always working on a motocrosser or my old car) and go from there. The Marines were the second best thing that ever happened to me,
my wife is the first, always and forever
. The USMC taught me I could do whatever I had to, to be proud that I could do that every time and to be organized at all times, attention to detail is the watchword for me. It has worked well so far to accept things and do the best I can.
George, don't feel as if you are getting the wool pulled over your eyes by me, not going to happen from me, ever. And, I don't even play cards

either. I am just fully at peace with myself and where I am at now. Dealing with surgeries and the renal failure is my biggest thing to fight, bicycling helps me deal with this and to relax me, 50+ is the place I can come and be accepted for who I am, not what I pretend to be.
Bill