In your post #18 above you mention "love of looks and heritage" and for your realization that it's not practical. I wanted to say, without sounding way off topic, that sounds like a lot of reasons why many relationships fail. I mean like when you get into a relationship with another because you think they're beautiful or handsome, yet their character is flawed, but you let your better judgement get the best of you. These "relationships" end up being your "around town" bike - not your serious, long term bike. I hope you get my meaning. I am not implying that you are like that in your personal life, in fact, it reminds me of myself when I was younger.