i believe i may have ADD.
i tend to really focus on one thing at a time.. i can't always decide what this focus will be and changing this focus is a very difficult task for me.
i am not really hyper.
anyway, i can relate to the therapeutic benefit.
i originally rode my bike to work as a plan to drop some pounds and save a buck or two. i didn't ride much at all before this time.
i started in a january with a short 6 mile commute. then my job was moved considerably farther out and i suffered for this... then i would have some weekdays that i didn't ride at all.
then october rolls around and i reached a new fitness level where i wasn't wiped out by the commute and it was more invigorating.
it was on a particular day of october that i had a moment of happiness that i would otherwise missed out on if i weren't biking in.
the air was crisp, the sky was crystal clear showing a slice of moon and a billion stars (a rare treat for city folk), also there was a strong smell of burning leaves that i associate with childhood since we can't burn in town anymore, and i was just stoked to be there breathing it all in. i thought about how i might be grumbling my way into my car where i would curse other people as sped off to a place i really didn't want to get to. the bike seemed a better, more interesting way of getting there.
i soon had a similiar morning experience racing rainclouds in one of the following weeks and i was hooked on commuting ever since.
i have driven quite a few times and usually don't care for it. if i am sick it is a welcomed change but i don't let myself get too comfy for fear of losing the focus on why i do it. my payoff moments like these i describe are not daily, nor even weekly, but they are moments i otherwise would not have if i were to stop riding and that in itself is worth the pain of creating them.
i myself might not have the attention span to read all of that personal blathering but hopefully it was worth something to someone if not only to myself
