I have three friends who have walked in your shoes, and all of them said the first year was absolute hell. All three eventually remarried, one to his "long lost" high school girlfriend. My wife and I are coming up on anniversary number 52 on 23 June, and I know death of a spouse would be a challenge, but our years together so far make that risk worth taking.
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"Far and away the best prize that life offers is the chance to work hard at work worth doing." --Theodore Roosevelt
Capo: 1959 Modell Campagnolo, S/N 40324; 1960 Sieger (2), S/N 42624, 42597
Carlton: 1962 Franco Suisse, S/N K7911
Peugeot: 1970 UO-8, S/N 0010468
Bianchi: 1982 Campione d'Italia, S/N 1.M9914
Schwinn: 1988 Project KOM-10, S/N F804069