I lost my beloved of 32 plus years, 6 years ago this month. She lost her 10-year battle with breast cancer. In my case as a deacon in Roman Catholic Church I took vow not to remarry and will not. I might add that I would not even if I could. My wife was so wonderful, and I love her now more than ever.

It seems you are doing ok and everyone grieves different no right or wrong answers. That said at least for me I find it no easier in terms of just living and missing having someone around. I am an introvert by nature but do like company and someone to talk to, My 2 boys are the only thing in some senses that is a family unit but my youngest is in Florida and I am in Illinois.

Of all the things people tell you some never make sense to others. In my case I could travel and go at least places to ride a bike. i have a thought to put bike in the SUV and take a 2 week cruise around to different states and ride in different places. Reality though it is alone and no one to share the experience so just not the same. Since covid happened about a year after my wife died I started riding huge amount like 10,000 miles a year. That is ok but age and a fall change that to being more careful. I had to nurse a broken collarbone, 2 broken metacarpals, and trochanter fracture myself. I did but it changed cycling forever. I have to be more careful and things can go wrong.

I hope you do well, and many remarry depending on age. Mary Jo even road a bike once in awhile with me she was just afraid of riding on the road a bit. An I Love Her So............