Sorry to hear of your illness and what must have been a tough decision. Your kindness in bidding farewell instead of just quietly drifting off honors this board.

I've had a Spiderflex saddle (http://www.spiderflex.com) on my shelf for the last year. I'm in Norman, like you, as I recall. PM me if you want to try it out. It's yours for somewhere between mega-cheap and free, especially if it gets you back in some kind of saddle.

In any case, it may not be goodbye forever. Maybe the johnnies will sort themselves out as you finish growing.