Sadly, this is true. Working at the bar I knew so many regulars who, after about a month of us all being aware of the situation, shed the stigma of the interlock and just stopped caring. It is even more sad to say the phrase 'so many regulars' with interlocks. People still came into the bar while on antabuse.

It ain't like we were in church and there were a few bad apples -we ALL drank like it was the end of the world. Y'know that question the paperwork at the doc asks you about your drinking? Well, they consider 10 drinks a week excessive. I was doing that many Jaegerbombs in a night four days a week.

What is the world coming to? It never used to be like this - I'm old enough to know and have been through the grinder.

SA, through all of this you have remained pretty calm, especially for an online forum, especially for this thread. I hope incidents like this make the girl seem petty in comparison.

The thing is, I've got some great friends, and family in my life. I include a lot of you in that group. You guys have been so helpful, and supportive through all of these mistakes I've been persistently making. I can't say enough how much I appreciate you all. I wouldn't even consider this a simple wake up call. This has been a life changing experience. If I told you all how in the last 13 years the problems that I have caused myself as an indirect result in dealing with this toxic relationship. You would all think I am the most idiotic person to ever take a breath of air. You would probably deem me not worthy of the air that I've robbed from the rest of the populace. It's only a wonder I am not dead, or in prison for some of the stuff I've done, including this last stunt. I really loved that girl with all of my heart. The problem is, and I say this with complete confidence, she was the wrong girl.

I feel like I've let all of you down, all of my family, friends, and even myself. I am focused on turning that around. I just got off the phone with my personal trainer friend. We are going out to dinner tonight after work. I am so grateful for having people like her in my life that really do care, and like me, without any ulterior motives. My best friend, "the gun nut" with all the machine guns, and exotic weapons, also has offered to be my life coach, and help me get things on track. He has saved me many times throughout my 13 years of idiocy. He has even given me a job at his company twice in that time period. Friends like that, don't come around often. I feel in great debt to all my real friends, my family, and myself to get my life together.

I have, I really have. I never will repeat this mistake again. Thirteen years of insanity is enough.

Thanks brother! It really means a lot.

I'm on it.

Great song PCAD.

I focus my rage on my workouts. Yes, she is a petty troubled woman. I still feel bad for her. As I get my life back together. I know she'll keep doing what she's been doing. That is no longer my problem anymore, however.

FYI... I'm a sarcastic smartass... and even though I don't know you personally... if I didn't care, I'd just ignore you. Glad to hear that you're on the right track.

Now back to my regular shenanigans.

Thanks buddy!

No wonder you fit in so well here.

I feel bad for you. As a guy who is ceaselessly swayed by someone petty and troubled how little control you must have over your own actions. So much so that you got behind the wheel drunk. From a guy with a family and friends I love very much you're an idiot.

i agree, i don't get it either.

God, I hope you're wrong about that. That is such a sad state of affairs.



Clearly I think we learned that a few volatile issues have to stay in P&R and never come out . . . which is sad in itself.

You are right, I was an idiot. Moving forward, I will never engage in such self destructive careless behavior. I hope you can forgive me for this. I am truly sorry.

I hate to sound like Dr Phil... but there's no need to apologize to us... and having us forgive you won't help.

Apologize to yourself, forgive yourself, and move on... always forward, not back.

I have, and that is my plan. Besides, it's not like my idiotic actions were any threat to Gary anyway. He's like 500miles away.

I don't know if we really like you....but I think you can stay for now.

Tampa showed us side boob. I say he stays.

Pcad writes love songs to his dog that makes non-dog people well up. Solid.

I just preach about the evils of drinking. Why the heck am I still here?

I would prefer a written formal apology by Singing Telegram, followed by an Addiction Airing of Solo Grievances.

The way I look at it if a song makes anybody cry, even if it's only the person that wrote it, it can't be all bad.

Pcad, are there more than lyrics yet? Did I miss it?

Oh goodie, another Festivus.

I posted the song to Soundcloud last night.

I would vote for Velo Vol if I didn't know his BF persona.

I cant hear it.

I didn't see the 'play' link. Great song, even more powerful than the words. Don't be shy with your voice, get it up there over the chords. Great effort.

Bonamassa was shy with his voice too. He isn't anymore :-)