Lol, Ken.

I try to fill the hole with a good spiritual life, kids, family, church. I really should be better at giving my time to others, though I'd do it at the drop of a hat if I observed a need...I should be taking it a step further and giving my time on a reg basis like some of my peers.

I'm often addicted to MTB'ing. To the bikes. To the trail. To the thought of trying to go bigger. To simplifying my ride. To taking advantage of new precision complexities. Often from one end of the spectrum to the other in a major way...as long as the pocketbook allows. I think about it all the time. It's not healthy.

I'm so concerned with saving a full pound of rotating weight by spending $70 on the Parker replacing the wire bead Nev'ies.

I should be spending that $70 on something that's valid. Something non-consumable. Something that will last beyond my generation. A kind gesture to a person that doesn't make that much money in a month...could translate to a story told to 3rd-world grandkids generations down the road. "I remember that time when that crazy churchy american fella came over here and just gave me a whole month's worth of 'shack-payment' and rice."

Mountain biking is addictive, fun, can become the purpose of ones life...it can cloud your financial judgement. It's a mystical power that is evil, pure, painful, and ultimately rewarding all at once.

I love it and resent it at the same time