General Hospital is that stupid?

The orderlies were blue stars in this asylum

A ray of hope and encouragement right here in the 41. That's like finding an honest man on Wall Street.

:hug: Andy, glad I can entertain you to some degree. Unfortunately it has been at the expense of my sanity for awhile. It feels so good to be back to being me again. I still haven't seen her since Christmas Day, and Monday was the most real conversation we have had since then.
That is supposed to happen today. As of Friday she is planning to visit me sometime today. Most likely lunch or dinner. I will keep you guys posted. If it even happens. I am not holding my breath for her even to show up. I would just like to address some of the things she said on the phone Monday. I really feel bad for her. She is a real mess. I wish I would have figured this out in September, but it is what it is. One of the funnier moments of our Monday conversation. A condition of my driving privileges is I can drive to medical appointments, or emergencies. Since she is a NP she offered to make me fake appointments at her office, so I could drive down and see her. I am not going to risk further penalties for such foolishness, however. Self preservation is much more important to me right now.

Oh no, don't encourage them.


Oh snap!


Oh no, it's bad grammar day again?


Not for nuttin, but isn't 'bah humbug' a less than optimal attitude for a 30 y/o?

I'm encouraged, in terms of battling winter boredom, that you continue to point out that your driving restrictions are an obstacle between the two of you... as opposed to, say... oh, the fact that she's a ****ed you over several times over the span of half of your life.

yup.

Same as the last one, where you mentioned the exact amount of time until you could drive unrestricted again SA. wtf man?

It's a welcome restriction. I can use it as an excuse. I do care for her despite what she has done. She is deeply troubled. RUokie's announcement yesterday, definitely caused me to think about her, and her issues a bit more. I know I can't comprise my own sanity to help her any longer, and I know I am not to blame if she did hurt herself. I could sense the hurt in her voice when talking about how she missed me on Monday. It was clearly her choices that made things the way they are, and it can never be the way it was again. That would be the definition of insanity.

After me hitting rock bottom, I've come to my senses on this. I haven't had a single drink since that night, and I am starting to feel like myself before 9/9/2012 again. I am making some really good money with my new career. Unfortunately, it's all going to fixing this problem I've gotten myself into right now. I can't wait until this is behind me, and I can focus on getting my CR-X caged, painted, and back on the road. Then I want to build a TT bike. It easier to make good decisions, when you are sleeping properly again.

I'm gone for a week or 2 and when I return I find that SA is back to talking with her ? WTF? I should be surprised but I am not. What does the good book say about this. Oh yeah, I remember-" Like a dog that returneth to it's vomit is the fool that returneth to his folly".
There is, in AA SA a saying that applies to the alcoholics penchant to do the same thing over and over and over again. It goes " Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results". We have been down this path before.

I love driving. It has nothing to do with seeing her. I'd like to burn a tank in the Insight, and head to NY to join pcad for a Nyack ride. I am a car guy as well as a cyclist. I planned to do some track days with my CR-X summer once I had it back together. That is all kind of on hold now. Driving is probably my second favorite thing to do next to cycling. I'll have to have friends drive me to bike races this spring. That sucks. My friend that works for the big red S, that lends me mtbs to thrash on lives 5min from her too. I don't see any mtb riding in my future until after this suspension either, for that reason. Unless he brings some mtbs up here to me. These things are what is important to me now. I'm moving past everything with her, but it's hard to do, when you are a prisoner to your house, and job. Luckily, I drive a lot for my job. It helps.

Again, I direct you to some Phil Collins to convey how I feel about this situation.

and with Genesis

Thank you for saying exactly what I was thinking, but didn't want to be mean about.

And SA, if you are on the Thruway (I-90), I am only 9 minutes from the Liverpool off ramp. I am still about 4.5 he's from the city, so feel free to have a neighborly rest stop.

I'll get back to you on that in a few months.

Doggy is being pretty much himself again. The new cone is a bit smaller, that helps with the ball licking, butt sniffing and food stealing, but I think he is just getting used to wearing a cone as the new normal.

Just to review -

Everybody but SA: dude, do you see those red flags waving around?
SA: I know, but it's different this time - I know what I'm doing.

I've seen this movie before. It was dumb and predictable the first time around, but screaming at the screen with the other viewers was kind of fun. Since it's winter, and there isn't much entertainment to go around, I'll watch again, but I think that I'll just enjoy the popcorn in relative silence while the protagonist trips over the same ol' ****.

I have never really had a desire to own a certain type of kitten, but I am finding the threat of being told I cannot have one strangely compelling.

Glad the doggie is doing better Herb!

So I am going to Alaska the last week of July. I found a Cervelo dealer in Anchorage. I am going to contact them about renting a bike for a day or two, and ride some mountains. I've never been to Alaska. I'm really looking forward to it.

That said, kittens and kitten food are spendy. I think those funds are better spent on bike schwag.

I know what it must look like. Trust me, I've got this. I don't want a relationship with her at all. I just want to be her friend, and know that I do care. I want to fix myself, and get my life back on track. She will always be a part of it, just never again a big part.

SA. That will not be possible. She is obsessing and any attempt at friendship gives her hope. She truly is like the dumb and dumber sketch. Trust me on this. You need to break all ties and move on. Do not attempt to be her friend. It is not fair to her.

Quick, someone give the turntable a nudge - the needle's stuck in the same grove again.

Join the club, except the popcorn is stale and so is the feature.

There's the bah humbug spin off.

spin offs are never as good as the original.